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HOW LONG – FEELING ABANDONED
David asks, “How long will You look the other way?” Have you ever felt like God has turned His back to you? I have.
As a believer, regardless of the extent of our spiritual maturity, it’s possible to reach a point so low we actually feel that everyone—even God—has abandoned us. We feel so alone, so desperate to be heard, yet unable to speak through the tears and the pain.
I believe that was David’s desperate condition when he wrote Psalm 13.
Sometimes we don’t sense that God’s there, but He is. Sometimes we don’t think He’s blessing us, but He is. Sometimes we don’t think He’s watching over us, but He is. In David’s distress he lost sight of God’s presence and blessing, and it’s easy for the same thing to happen to us.
But the TRUTH is, He has not abandoned you.
“The eyes of the Lord are everywhere, keeping watch on the wicked and the good.” – Proverbs 15:3
“Am I only a God nearby”, declares the Lord, “and not a God far away? Can anyone hide in secret places so that I cannot see him?” declares the Lord, “Do not I fill heaven and earth?” – Jeremiah 23:23-24
It may feel like God has turned away from you, but the reality is that He is very near, and is working on something in your heart. What is He teaching you?
Now is the time to spend some extra time in His Word, trying to hear His voice. I know in these times of despair it’s much easier to wallow in self-pity than seek His heart. I’ve been there, I get it. But time with Him is the most important thing you can do right now.
Pray. And when you don’t know what to pray anymore, read through some scripture as your prayer. Call out to Him. Cry out to Him. Seek hard after His heart for you and this difficult time. Ask Him to show you what He is trying to teach you, to give you the wisdom to see.
It may take a while, but keep after it, it’s worth it. Personally, I journal while I pray. I highly recommend it if you don’t already. It makes it so much easier to go back and look to see if He’s working on some type of “theme” in your life.
My “theme” was, and continues to be, WAIT. I wrote more about that here. What is your “theme” God is trying to give you? Even though my theme doesn’t sound like it, just knowing what He has for me gives me comfort. It makes it easier to WAIT in Him.
“Never put a comma where God puts a period. And never put a period where God puts a comma.” Mark Batterson