“I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.’ The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.” Lamentations 3:19-26
It is so easy to be consumed with worry, bitterness and frustration when you’re battling infertility. For many of us it has to be the very first thing we think about when we wake up – so that we remember to pee on that dang ovulation predictor stick, every dang day.
These times can be dark. These times can be lonely. In these days it can be difficult to find hope.
But it is in these times when it is most important, to recall all the ways you have seen God’s love and compassion in your life. It is one of the best ways to battle against bitterness.
In this time of waiting for Him, take a minute or two each morning and write down 3-5 ways you’ve seen His love and provision in the past. Write it in a journal, or find and app like Evernote and log it in your phone. Then thank Him for what He’s already done for you, and ask Him to give you the hope you need to wait patiently on Him for His next “good thing” in your life, whatever it might be.
…then, on those mornings after the dreaded two week wait, when you don’t have a positive sign, read over your lists and be reminded of His love for you, and remember you are not alone.